Patience in the Lord

I sit in here and there... 

and I do this and that... 

and I wonder when... 

when will it all finally come together? 

I have a plan... 

My plan always gives Him a chuckle! 

  Sometimes my plan gives Him a full belly laugh! 

And then I remember to pray and fast and seek His will... 

The praying and fasting is a trial, but it is good... 

And when He takes something/ someone away from me it's because He says I deserve better... 

And yet that is sometimes very hard to deal with... 

the letting go and starting over His way. 

And I pray and fast and ask myself, "do I do these things to make him happy 

OR 

to make Him happy?" 

And I think that is what this fast is about~ following Him to him. Following Him so that he can find me and so that he has to follow Him to see me. 

Isn't that the path I wanted anyways? 

The path I was on before it all got so convoluted into pleasing him. 

Back when every step I took on the homestead was for His purpose. 

And so, 

I head back to that path. 

The right path.