M I A, but for a Reason

Yes, you noticed right. I have ben MIA from my blog lately. Well I've posted some, but really haven't shared what's in my heart.

I simply had to step back, take some time off and let God deal with me. I am so desperately wanting to go forward in Him and wondering how some of this mess will lead to where He is sending me next.

And I completely lost track of the fact that

He

sent me here!

Yes, here. To this desolate place of so much hatred, selfishness and unforgiveness.

And yet,

this is the place He has placed me to grow and prepare for my calling. I must grow where I am planted until He moves me.

Until

He

Moves me!

And, I have done some deep soulsearching about myself. Where am I? Where do I want to be in Him? And how do I want to portray myself?

Where am I? Just another soul struggling day to day to fullfill His divine will in my humble life.

Where do I want to be in Him? More than anything I want to draw near enough to Him that he will bless me to be a Pastor's wife someday (soon!)!

How do I want to portray myself? I've really struggled with that one. (Is there any good way to word it?) I am a Christian woman and I really need to be in a skirt or dress, preferably below knee length. I have struggled with this~ and been challenged about my beliefs by more than one person. All this has led me back to where I belong~ obedience to Him. Plain and simple. Not for the comfort of others, some whom seem extremely oddly uncomfortable by a modestly dressed woman. But for my walk. Yesterday, after a long day in bed with the flu Monday, I wore jeans to work as I thought the support would make my aching back feel better. Nope! Too tight! Thankfully I had a long t-shirt on as I had to unzip my pants while at work~ UGH! All day I wished I had put on a skirt. One simple act of obedience would have prevented me from walking around all day in men's clothes that I couldn't even keep zipped propperly! Talk about conviction hitting me in the face~ and Hard!!

And, as I sit on the sunnier side of my little MIA, I relate better to Rascal Flatt's "Changed" 

http://youtu.be/AVgfHz_f4Os 

Just go and listen~ trust me.

I have to change to move forward.

And, I have to stick to my convictions. That doesn't mean these have to be yours, altough I'd sure love it if you'd join me on my journey! A travel companion is always nice.