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Friday, December 30, 2011
Thursday, December 29, 2011
Tuesday, December 27, 2011
Today I am weird...
Today I am weird... yup, weird... back and forth... letting really stupid stuff get to me... at my desk... why am I like this?
I woke happy/ content... Matt and I slept over at work... nice to hear his breathing nearby~ he slept on a cot next to my bed... somehow I always sleep more peacefully when he is near... maybe because he is special... maybe because co-sleeping was how we kept him breathing when he was a baby... I dunno...
I think it has a lot to do with what I am trying to accomplish right now...
and that I am seriously Not Backing Down!
I am still making mistakes..
oh, yeah...
but, I am really trying hard to get this right!!!
This week is a prayerful/ fasting/ heavy Bible study week...
Please, God... I'm trying...
I can see that my life is about to change in a big way... and this change will be a HUGE blessing...
but, the waiting... the patience thing... is tough...
it's not a lack of faith...
more of a tantrum...
"I want it and I want it now!"
Wonder how God feels about my attitude... my me-isms?
probably the way I feel when Matt acts the same way...
OK...
so now to get right...
seriously~ am I going to act like I'm two-years-old all day?!
Nope!!!
time to pray for a bit... more Bible study (of course!)...
and move on to concentrate on the needs of others...
John, who is sad with no family at Christmas...
Teri, who sent Del to tell me not to call for a few days...
And...
Most Importantly...
What is His divine will for my day today?
Monday, December 26, 2011
Sunday, December 25, 2011
Friday, December 23, 2011
Scouting Friends
Dropping Off the Face of the Earth
Sometimes, for my own sanity, I simply drop off the face of the earth.
That means that I don't initiate contact with anyone. I don't make phone calls unless absolutely necessary. I do take (or return incoming calls), but share no personal info.
I do smile and say "good morning" to those I encounter, though. No need to be rude.
The reason for dropping off the face of the earth is two-fold.
First, it allows me to go back to just being me, more importantly being who He wants me to be, without worrying about what others are going to think, comment on, or spread about me.
Second, it gives me a chance to see who actually reaches out to me when I 'disappear'. This was not the original intent of dropping off the face of the earth, just an interesting by-product!
I have someone 'close' to me who actually told me repeatedly on the phone, "Don't feel like you need to call me back for a few days!" So... I simply quit calling her. And... she started to call me just to see what I was doing...
I have been slowly fading into the scenery over the last month or so... with one person/ group of people at a time... some have noticed... funny how this is such an accurate barometer!
Last night a 'friend' told me who I should marry... again... for the umpteenth time... regardless of what the Holy Spirit is telling me... best to fade away into the scenery... not discuss it...
sometimes it's nice to just share what the chickens are doing and leave it at that!
I have someone 'close' to me who actually told me repeatedly on the phone, "Don't feel like you need to call me back for a few days!" So... I simply quit calling her. And... she started to call me just to see what I was doing...
I have been slowly fading into the scenery over the last month or so... with one person/ group of people at a time... some have noticed... funny how this is such an accurate barometer!
Last night a 'friend' told me who I should marry... again... for the umpteenth time... regardless of what the Holy Spirit is telling me... best to fade away into the scenery... not discuss it...
sometimes it's nice to just share what the chickens are doing and leave it at that!
Thursday, December 22, 2011
Wednesday, December 21, 2011
Matt's Career Arrow
Aiden's Christmas
Tuesday, December 20, 2011
If and When I Will be Obedient...
Good Morning!
How are you this blessed morning? Such a beautiful day!
I must say that I came to a realization how great my rebellion truly is... I was standing in my living room in front of my stereo last night listening to K-love and glanced over my shelf of Bibles and Bible study books...
there, on my shelf, was "Empowered for the Call" by Dr. Tim Bagwell...
I found myself thinking, "who gave me this? why was it important I read this and apply it to my life?" I reached for it without realizing what I was doing, and, as I looked at the cover, I remembered the sweet friend who asked me to read it and return it... I believe he had borrowed it from his Pastor! uh-oh... that was a year ago... and, of course, he is so very kind as to not have said anything... he's just patiently waiting to see if and when I will be obedient enough to read and apply this book to my life!
I riffled through the pages and found the notes I'd taken and remembered that I had previously realized those notes were so scant they only make sense if I'm actively reading the book! ...but I knew I absolutely HAD to reread the 40 pages I had already read twice, then finish the book while taking notes I can actually refer back to later coherently... and be able to share these notes with others wanting to grow in this direction...
I was in the middle of my usual ADHD cleaning of my house, so I laid the book on my bed, looking at it longingly.. then I went back to add more boards to my fire (boards burn fast, so I am back in there at least every half hour)... and on to check laundry, finish cleaning the stove top, work on Matt's Career Arrow...
then... I read a bit of the book...
yes, I am still in a bit of rebellion...
tonight, after we get home from Pack 61 Christmas party, I am going to pull out a fresh notebook and delve in...
as I sit at my desk contemplating payroll, I am longing to read this book...
tonight around 9:00pm... a fresh cup of coffee... a fresh notebook... a good book that will help me grow into the Christian I need to be...
Thank you, my dear friend, for sharing your book so patiently!
How are you this blessed morning? Such a beautiful day!
I must say that I came to a realization how great my rebellion truly is... I was standing in my living room in front of my stereo last night listening to K-love and glanced over my shelf of Bibles and Bible study books...
there, on my shelf, was "Empowered for the Call" by Dr. Tim Bagwell...
I found myself thinking, "who gave me this? why was it important I read this and apply it to my life?" I reached for it without realizing what I was doing, and, as I looked at the cover, I remembered the sweet friend who asked me to read it and return it... I believe he had borrowed it from his Pastor! uh-oh... that was a year ago... and, of course, he is so very kind as to not have said anything... he's just patiently waiting to see if and when I will be obedient enough to read and apply this book to my life!
I riffled through the pages and found the notes I'd taken and remembered that I had previously realized those notes were so scant they only make sense if I'm actively reading the book! ...but I knew I absolutely HAD to reread the 40 pages I had already read twice, then finish the book while taking notes I can actually refer back to later coherently... and be able to share these notes with others wanting to grow in this direction...
I was in the middle of my usual ADHD cleaning of my house, so I laid the book on my bed, looking at it longingly.. then I went back to add more boards to my fire (boards burn fast, so I am back in there at least every half hour)... and on to check laundry, finish cleaning the stove top, work on Matt's Career Arrow...
then... I read a bit of the book...
yes, I am still in a bit of rebellion...
tonight, after we get home from Pack 61 Christmas party, I am going to pull out a fresh notebook and delve in...
as I sit at my desk contemplating payroll, I am longing to read this book...
tonight around 9:00pm... a fresh cup of coffee... a fresh notebook... a good book that will help me grow into the Christian I need to be...
Thank you, my dear friend, for sharing your book so patiently!
Monday, December 19, 2011
Happy Monday!
Saturday, December 17, 2011
Typical Morning
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Friday, December 16, 2011
Soup Starter
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Thursday, December 15, 2011
Prepping for a Zombie Apocalypse...
Hi!
Welcome back!!!
Where are you in prepping for the Zombie Apocalypse?
Although I think we'll be OK... well, maybe not... are we talking hoards of Zombies roaming the streets? Martial Law? Why am I not prepped?
Matt and I talked about scenarios while I drove him to school this morning...
Today was a good time to bring this up as I forgot to buy milk and poured evaporated milk on his cereal this morning... "Buddy, if they declare martial law, this will be what we're drinking!"
Do we have Zombies now?
Take a slow drive through that neighborhood you avoid... look into their eyes... desperately poor... addictions... little to no nourishing food available... lacking the ability to change their situation...
They are the current Zombie Apocalypse!
How skilled are we at survival?
The most skilled are, we decided, the servicemen and women... due to the nature of their jobs and training, they almost automatically will survive...
Next in line are the homesteaders... voluntarily living off their own land... acutely aware of their environment... refusing to die...
Then come the homeless... they have instincts that are scary!
After that we counted in all Boy Scouts...
Then the Webelos... (Boy Scouts in training)...
Then Cub Scouts...
The rest of the population? Well, all that posh living doesn't do much to prepare you... your designer clothes and acrylic nails will be useless... all the money in your bank will be untouchable, if not worthless...
Matt and I chatted on... ...
What if martial law is declared?
After 'snowpocalypse' last year, what did we learn about being stuck at home indefinitely?
Tonight Matt is going to make a list of what we should have stocked up...
then find out how much 'stocked up' means...
how many rolls of TP/ person/ year?
(We only have four rolls right now!)
What about board games?
Do we have all the pieces?
We must assume electric will be down due to a storm or EMP...
And, maybe, art supplies...
that could keep us busy for hours!
And yarn for me to knit...
(knitting relaxes me)...
Then he will make up a shopping list for us to prep...
Matt is now responsible (on a ten-year-old level) for our Zombie Apocalypse preps...
I think he's going to enjoy this new responsibility and the fun of being ready for anything!
Wednesday, December 14, 2011
Salsa Chicken
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Where Am I Today?
Sometimes I seem so on-track I scare myself... sometimes I go through valleys where I wonder how I got there and where was He sending me...? Funny how I can go along doing so well and think I'm following His will... then look up and suddenly wonder what I'm doing! Am I really following His will? And, usually, after prayer, I realize I am on track... just going through a trial put there for my own growth... I have to admit I love growth, but I'm not too overly fond of the trials!
Today I find myself abundantly blessed. Not a financial blessing, although I 'think' we'll be OK financially... but spiritually blessed... filled with the abundant Peace of the Lord!
I see more trials ahead... the direction He is taking me has more growth opportunities available than I like to think about... and with those come blessings I've been waiting decades for...
Bring On the Trials!!!
Tuesday, December 13, 2011
Cart Before the Horse?
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Monday, December 12, 2011
Fresh Eggs?!
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